Saturday, January 30, 2010

Thursday, January 21, 2010

The Dragon Within

From The Philosopher's Stone by Israel Regardie:

"A vast amount of material exists in early psycho-analytical literature on the subject and significance of the Dragon.  A great deal of this is well synthesized in The Psychology of the Unconscious by Jung.  Briefly it may be said that the Dragon refers to the instincts, to undomesticated libido.  We have already defined the libido not as sexual desire alone as the Freudians claim, but as the sum total of all psychic energy, the life force peculiar to any organism.  Undomesticated libido would therefore represent that portion of psychic energy which has not yet been recognized and hence employed by consciousness.  In consequence, it remains in a crude, undeveloped, unutilized and undomesticated anxiety which so to speak poisons this energy, it comes to represent a source of real danger to the individual.  Whatever within cannot be dealt with invariably becomes a psychic projection, an objective something which the undeveloped psyche can suppress, or from which it may make frantic efforts to escape, or deal with in other ways.
All primitive and archaic concepts of the devil, satan, evil, etc., represent just such projected or objectified psychic energy that has not been recognized nor included within the scope of the ego.  Ignorance as to its true nature gives rise to further fear, and this emotion invests the psychic object with innumberable qualities and predicates born and bred from fantasy.  The dragon, which is precisely such a projection of feared because untamed psychic energy and content, is symbolic of the instinctual nature.  It represents enormous power and dynamic energy, the emotional drives and urges which are at the foundation and root of all conscious development.  Accepted and thus brought within the possibility of development and utilization-for denial and repression transforms into a fearful life-rending monster-it serves as a trained and faithful  beast whereupon the psyche may ride and proceed upon its individual evolution."


What a great couple of paragraphs 

The energy that we use to create bad and evil or fear and anger is the same energy that is at our disposal for good and altruistic, love and joy.  The patterns must simply be shifted.  All one has to do is admit to himself that he is not the best he can be.  You are not the person you want to be and could easily be.  Stop fantasizing about the great person you are and bring those repressed evils to light.  

Evil is good.  We live in a fallen world.  The evil is the means toward the good or the light.  One doesn't fight the dragon or go against nature.  We accept it and show it love and use it for our own good.  Acknowledge it as part of us, show it love, show it forgiveness and bring it in.

The Christian Scientists claim that there is no evil or sin or disease.  And they are correct in one sense.  In the world of absolute there is none but God's love.  The problem is we are fallen.  We live in a world of duality.  We didn't fall into this world balanced or if we did we gradually lost touch with this balance (God).  One doesn't easily find the good and stay there.  We are pulled from every direction.  We get excited and let our emotions go high and we will at some point be driven back down.  At some point or another one descends into sin.  Most people today are afraid of anything evil and simply repress it, they pretend the boogeyman isn't there.  If you simply admit he is there he will disappear.  Our continual repression of his existence guarantees his indefinite staying power.  The dragon remains to torture us and rear his ugly head whenever he likes.  Our ignorance begets a total lack of control.  Self Consciousness, becoming aware of the dragon and taming it eventually brings control.  Control means one can take over or he can step aside.  This is true development.

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

Esotericism with Vernon Howard

"If you look long enough at what frightens you it will get frightened and run away."

"In the absence of self-betrayal, no one can betray you.  If you know a panther when you see one, do you play around with it?"
Self betrayal is careless ignorance of one's own mind.  It means one has not exposed certain illusions which make him gullible to others.  A person who gets hurt in his relations with the opposite sex must see many facts.  Such as his intense desire for the other person closes his eyes to the other person's self serving schemes.

"Running away from a crisis is not the same as running towards reality.  A realization of this allows us to use troubles to end troubles."
This is explained by the man who tries to row out of the whirlpool, he reaches the edge and stops rowing but is still caught and will get sucked back in.  The crisis will end when he refuses temporary comfort for permanent freedom.  He must cross the edge into calm water.  People are more eager to relieve stress than to examine and end its cause.

"If you want to know where you are living from damaging self-images, notice where you are most easily offended."

"A change in exterior circumstances does not change a man's spiritual level, for a pygmy of a mountain top is still a pygmy."

"Hide nothing, protect nothing, and you are as carefree as a sparrow in the sky.  This is beauty in action.  You don't have to take thought about yourself, for there in no artificial self screaming for protection.  You walk in and out of any human situation as you please, having nothing to win or lose.  This is because you won the invisible prize."

"Cause and effect occupy the same place.  Cause is not in another person's rude behavior towards you, with the disturbing effect inside you.  Both cause and effect are within the person feeling the disturbance.  The individuals response contains both cause and effect."

"Tension is caused by opposing desires.  Only an understanding of vanity pleasing desire can end tension."

Thursday, January 14, 2010

More "Atomic Suicide" Quotes

From Walter Russell's book "Atomic Suicide":

"When a solid is sufficiently expanded, it becomes invisible.  It also gradually loses all weight in respect to the gravity of the earth and rises into space to seek pressures equal to its own.  When it thus finds and equilibrium of pressure, it will float."

"Electricity is divided into its opposite expressions which term positive and negative.  Positive electricity thrusts spirally inward from without to wind up light into an incandescent ball located at the apex of a cone.  Negative electricity thrusts spirally outward from within to unwind light into space in the direction of the base of a cone.
Positive electricity, gravitation and contraction are the integration of matter, while negative electricity, radiation and expansion disintegrates matter into space."

'Light and darkness are merely a question of contraction and expansion.'

"Sunlight is the result of contraction into intense motion while the darkness of space is the result of expansion into an almost motionless very long wave state."

"All things are.  Nothing new comes into existence.  Universal energy is constant.  Nothing is added to it or subtracted from it.  Its apparent changes are but interchanges."

"Nature multiplies by dividing.  She adds by subtracting.  She re-gives what she has been given.  As Nature, including man, changes its thought patterns existent material forms and combinations are transformed into the forms and dimensions of transformed thoughts."

"Creation is, therefore, a two-way process in which destruction of one form of matter must balance its construction into another form, the form alone being destroyed.  Each is but an opposite phase of the same thing."

Nature says to man:  "I am a balanced, two way reciprocating unit.  Emulate my balanced two-way actions and your works will endure forever; otherwise I shall destroy them as I shall destroy all unbalance."

"If we could see the whole two ways of entire cycles of motion (visible/invisible), God might as well not have created the universe of cause and effect at all.  We would know it for what it is and would see both cause and effect at once.  There would be no actors in the divine drama of creation for we would see the illusion of it and know there is no universe of motion - nor of life and death - nor of good or evil - nor of any of the opposites which comprise every effect of motion."

"If our senses could detect the invisible reaction to every action, there would be no sense of time - nor motion - nor change - for everything would seemingly stand still.  Every motion in one direction would be voided by its opposite.  Even time would stand still.  Its backwards flow would void its forward flow.  If our senses could detect the backward flow of time, there would be no sequence to anything - hence time itself would disappear."

Sigur Ros

Saturday, January 9, 2010

What is Love?


Friday, January 8, 2010

Discover the Real Reward of Higher Truth

What a beautiful man.  Enjoy these videos by Vernon Howard

Peter Gabriel - In Your Eyes

Brings about the the desire to connect with the soul in me.
Quite Inspirational!

Thursday, January 7, 2010

Hierarchical/Relative Consciousness

Quote from Vitvan - "A Treatise On Faith" on perception of the objective world

"Here in this world, we are surrounded by and we are also incorporated in a Light-energy world of highly dynamic frequency and we can't see it.  We don't even know it.  "Where is that ocean?" the fishes said.  (You know the fishes held a convention and they argued where that ocean was, or whether there was an ocean.  Some of them got up and said, "There isn't such a thing, no such thing as an ocean."  Others said, "Yes, there is an ocean somewhere; it is omnipotent, it is omniscient, it is all-pervading." "But show us," said the agnostic ones.  Many others sincerely wanted to be shown where that ocean was, and so the arguments went on and on and on.)  And so arguments go on and on and on about whether there is any God, whether there is a cosmic process.  Or, if there is, where is it?  Some say there isn't any such animal or thing, and others say vaguely, "It is everywhere, even up in the sky."  But let us get right down in our respective selves and see how we register rapid frequency received from this energy world and how we make a picture of those frequencies registered as continuous.

So long as the pictures remain in your consciousness, wholly and totally unconscious to your objective, mentalized-self, or mental concept of self, you will then accept the images or pictures as reality; and to those images or pictures so appearing--which are generally identified with that from which the frequencies are received--you give values and create values about them.  (The you here means the whole race, from the awakening of consciousness from animal state to the awakening of consciousness in wave-frequencies.  In the animal state, the so-called objective world exists as a dream picture exists to man, where the man awakening from the dream says, "Those pictures that I saw in the dream were real, so long as I not awaken, but they were only dream-pictures.")  So, when a given individual really awakens and sees this world AS IT IS, outside of or other than his private world, then he will look back to that old objective state and say, "What a dream!  What a dream!  We were sound asleep and walking dreamers!  Giving values to images in our own respective private worlds that looked 'out there,' that appeared so substantive""


These two paragraphs are very full of wisdom.  What I take from it is this.  Think about yours dreams while sleeping.  When you wake up and re-orient yourself to this objective world does the dream not become foggy in your mind?  Do your memories from earlier years in your life seem foggy?  For me they are, but that could be the effects of heavy drug use I don't know, maybe people see their past experiences clear as today.  Some are quite vivid still I guess.  Anyways, I can only go off of my perceptions.   It could be that the reason the dream appears foggy to us in this world is because our consciousness in this material world is foggy.  It would seem that the dream world is closer to reality than this material world and all spiritual schools of knowledge support this.  Our consciousness being so attached to this waking life flips it around on us.  So everything seems to point to us simply not having evolved the correct faculties and instruments to function correctly in that world.  Nor have we evolved the faculties to function with efficiency in this world either.  The reality is that we are still beings in our infant stages, having recently (relatively speaking) crossed the threshold from the involutionary stage to evolutionary (racially speaking).  We have built the form up, now we must learn how to manipulate it correctly.

What Vitvan seems to say is that if we were to see this world as it TRULY IS, then we would see that this is the true dream world.  It is not really the ENVIRONMENT to concentrate on, but man's CONSCIOUSNESS and how he uses his consciousness to perceive the objective world.  From my own experience of consciousness evolution I can say this.  That when I gather a mental image of myself and my mind from a year ago as I was new to my personal journey, I see a lot of cloudiness.  I see someone who thought he was at the forefront of knowledge and was becoming enlightened.  How foolish I was.  Even if I were to look at myself from three months ago or read what I wrote, I say to myself how dumb I sound.

The point is that everything is relative to your position.  You look out into this objective world and you project out into it and attach and identify with "things".  Is dreaming really any different from 'waking' life?  The reality is that it isn't.  When I have sex in a dream it feels just as good (if not better) as it does on this plane.  You are simply using a lower level of consciouness on this plane, a little more crystallized.  Your subconscious (closer to source and thus truth) controls the mind in the dream world while the conscious mind (farthest away from source/truth) operates in the objective material world.  I've seen it put this way, 'in the physical world, space is real and time is imaginary and in the etheric world, time is real and space is imaginary'.

The two planes are merely different levels of consciousness within yourself.  Just as you a year ago and today are simply different levels of conscious WITHIN yourself.  This is why the case for humility must be made.  If you look at yourself a year ago and think about how dumb you seemed, what did the illuminated man or person who is at your stage of consciousness (back then) think of you?  This pridefulness then bars you from receiving the teachings of the illuminated man most likely as well.

What Vitvan is trying to say in my opinion is that this light energy is moving too fast for our level of consciousness to perceive it.  We do the best we can with our current evolved faculties and identify it as we will.  What we see is not reality.  When we become aware of this fact by raising our consciousness we will see just how asleep we were.

Again this is why identification must be done away with.  One can never see truth until he opens his mind and heart.  One can never be free unless he opens himself to new ideas.  We must bend ourselves to see the truth.  There is no spoon (there is no material world).  There is no other way.  This is the very reason why we should be so concerned with how we expend our energy.  Put our energy into whatever it is that helps us to evolve.  One's current level of energy might be low, but he must fight this.  Realize that the conscious work that we put in will raise our level of energy allowing us to push the envelope further.

It might look bleak as of where we stand now.  We don't see the road to paradise.  But we must realize that the road is treacherous and meandering.  It must be taken slowly.  Going fast not only does one no good, it is detrimental.  We are all builders and the freemason must lay one brick at a time to build his temple.  If the fire burns bright enough within we will find the truth.

I've got a bunch of new books by this illuminated character Vitvan.  I'll be diving into them and most likely posting some more of his ideas and concepts.  Please take these interpretations of this Vitvan's gnosis simply as how I see it.  This type of knowledge is hard to translate and using the wrong language can completely skew the teaching.  Please know that I am trying to be careful and that I am still learning myself.

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

Path to Eternity

Thomas Bromley poeticizes:

Now the motion of the Soul through the Gate of Death towards Life Eternal, is the motion of a Spirit, which is to be looked upon as ascending or descending, as it comes nearer or removes further from God the Center, as Bodies ascend or descend in relation to their Center, by their tending toward or fromward the Visible Heavens. Upward therefore to a Soul, is Inward; Outward is Downward. The Center is the Highest, the Circumference the lowest. God is in the Center being the most Inward; Matter in the Circumference, being most Outward; yet God is in the Outward, as his footstool, but in the most Inward, as his Throne; filling both, though in both, not manifest alike. In the Inmost, he shows himself wholly in the Love; in the Outmost, in Love and Wrath, Life and Death, Generation and Corruption: But in the Inward dark World, altogether in Death, Darkness, and Wrath; as in the Inmost, all in Light and Life.

Therefore our Progress is from the Outward, through the Inward to the Inmost. The Outward is the place of Good and Evil, and as to its corrupt State, the Kingdom of the Beast. The Inward is two-fold, either the Dark or Light World. The Dark, is the Kingdom of the Dragon, the Center of Evil and Wrath; The Light World is the Paradisiacal Sphere, or that Garden of Eden, which is also situate in its Mesopotamia, or betwixt the two great rivers of Wrath and Love. The first of which is called The Lake of Fire, burning with Brimstone; the last,  A pure River of Water of Life, clear as Chrystal, which proceeds out of the Throne of God, and of the Lamb. The Inmost, is the eternal Sanctuary, or true eternal Tabernacle of God, and that spiritual Land of Peace, where Abraham, Isaac and Jacob, and all the glorified, departed Saints live and inhabit.

But none can ever reach This, but through the perfect Death; and as we die daily, so we rise nearer it, Death giving us a gradual passage towards this Eternal Kingdom of Life.

And is it so, that Death must waft us ore,

The Sea of Nature, to the Heavenly shore?

Then bring thy Boat, blest Death, that thou and I

May sail together towards Eternity.

A sweet Companion thou wilt be to me,

Till I imbosom’d am in Unity.

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

What Makes a Life Significant

An excerpt from a lecture by William James entitled "What Makes Life Significant"

A few summers ago I spent a happy week at the famous Assembly Grounds on the borders of Chautauqua Lake.  The moment one treads that sacred enclosure, one feels one's self in an atmosphere of success.  Sobriety and industry, intelligence and goodness, orderliness and ideality, prosperity and cheerfulness, pervade the air.  It is a serious and studious picnic on a gigantic scale.  Here you have a town of many thousands of inhabitants, beautifully laid out in the forest and drained, and equipped with means for satisfying all the neccessary lower and most of the superflous higher wants of man.  You have a first-class college in full blast.  You have magnificent music - a chorus of seven hundred voices, with possibly the most perfect open-air auditorium in the world.  You have every swimming, bicycling, to the ball-field and the more artificial doings which the gymnasium affords.  You have kindergartends and model secondary schools.  You have general religious services and special clubhouses for the several sects.  You have perpetually running soda-water fountains, and daily popular lectures by distinguished men.  You have the best of company, and yet no effort.  You have no zymotic diseases, no poverty, no drunkeness, no crime, no police.  You have culture, you have kindness, you have cheapness, you have equality, you have the best fruits of what mankind has fought and bled and striven for under the name of civilization for centuries.  You have, in short, a foretaste of what human society might be, were it all in the light, with no suffering and no dark corners.

I went in curiosity for a day.  I stayed for a week, held spell-bound by the charm and ease of everything, by the middle-class paradise, without a sin, without a victim, without a blot, without a tear.

And yet what was my own astonishment, on emerging into the dark and wicked world again, to catch myself quite unexpectedly and involuntarily saying:  "Ouf! what a relief!  Now for something primordial and savage, even though it were as bad as an Armenian massacre, to set the balance straight again.  This order is too tame, this culture too second-rate, this goodness too uninspiring.  This human drama without a villain or a pang; this community so refined that ice-cream soda-water is the utmost offering it can make to the brute animal in man; this city simmering in the tepid lakeside sun; this atrocious harmlessness of all things, - I cannot abide with them.  Let me take my chances again in the big outside worldly wilderness with all its sins and sufferings.  There are the heights and depths, the precipices and the steep ideals, the gleams of teh awful and the infinite; and there is more hope and help a thousand times than in this dead level and quintessence of every mediocrity.

Such was the sudden right-about-face performed for me by my lawless fancy!  There had been spread before me the realization - on a small, sample scale of course - of all the ideals for which our civilization has been striving:  security, intelligence, humanity, and order; and here was the instinctive hostile reaction, not of the natural man, but of a so-called cultivated man upon such a Utopia.  There seemed thus to be a self-contradiction and paradox somewhere, which I , as a professor drawing a full salary, was in duty bound to unravel and explain, if I could.

So I meditated.  And, first of all, I asked myself what the thing was that was so lacking in this Sabbatical city, and the lack of which kept one forever falling short of the higher sort of contentment.  And I soon recognized that it was the element that gives to the wicked outer world all its moral style, expressiveness, and picturesqueness, - the element of precipitousness, so to call it, of strength and strenuousness, intensity and danger.  What excites and interests the looker-on at life, what the romances and the statues celebrate and the grim civic monuments remind us of, is the everlasting battle of teh power of light with those of darkness; with heroism, reduced to its bare chance, yet ever and anon snatching victory from the jaws of death.  But in this unspeakable Chautauqua there was no potentiality of death in sight anywhere, and no point of the compass visible from which danger might possibly appear.  The ideal was so completely victorious already that no sign of any previous battle remained, the place just resting on its oars.  

But what our human emotions seem to require is the sight of the struggle going on.  The moment the fruits are being merely eaten, things become ignoble.  Sweat and effort, human nature strained to its uttermost and on the rack, yet getting through alive, and then turning its back on its success to pursue another more rare and arduous still - this is the sort of thing the presence of which inspires us, and the reality of which it seems to be the function of all the higher forms of literature and fine art to bring home to us and suggest.  At Chautauqua there were no racks, even in the place's historical museum; and no sweat, except possibly the gentle moisture on the brow of some lecturer, or on the sides of some player in the ball-field.  

Such absence of human nature in extremis anywhere seemed, then, a sufficient explanation for Chautauqua's flatness and lack of zest.

But was not this a paradox well calculated to fill one with dismay?  It looks indeed, thought I, as if the romantic idealists with their pessimism about our civilization were, after all, quite right.  An irremediable flatness is coming over the world.  Bourgeoisie and mediocrity, church sociables and teachers' conventions, are taking the place of the old heights and depths and romantic chiaroscuro.  And, to get human life in its wild intensity, we must in future turn more and more away from the actual, and forget it, if we can, in the romancer's or the poet's pages.  The whole world, delightful and sinful as it may still appear for a moment to one just escaped from the Chautauquan enclosure, is nevertheless obeying more and more just those ideals that are sure to make of it in the end a mere Chatauqua Assembly on an enormous scale.  Was im Gesang soll leben muss im Leben untergehn.  Even now, in our own country, correctness, fairness, and compromise for every small advantage are crowding out all other qualities.  The higher heroisms and the old rare flavors are passing out of life.


 I've never seen a utopian society myself except maybe on the television and the way William James, one of the most learned man of his times, describes it sounds as if it lacked soul.  This speaks to why we are here struggling through each life.  If we wanted a cozy, divine life we would have never fallen.  It's that itch to choose whats behind door number two.  When someone tells you they have bad news, but they don't want to bring your day down, what do you do?  You insist that they tell you.  We get a morbid pleasure out of the darkness just as much as we bask in the joys of the light.

I'll sleep when I'm dead.  Heaven is a place of rest and relaxation where we can drink from chocolate rivers and eat candied ice sickles.  If you are here on this earth and unless you can call yourself the Son of God himself, you have work to do.  In time there will be a New Jerusalem on earth, that time has surely not arrived.  Look around you.  What do you see?  I see pseudo-savages who refuse to think.  I see mediocrity or worse.  I see planet of people who have become so afraid of the dark or death that light has ceased to shine nullifying the darkness along with it.  Everyone has ceased to move, they lie motionless on their deathbeds.  A purgatory preceding purgatory that never seems to end.  

A world lacking soul.  What does this imply?  A lack of connection.  Fear breeds disconnection.  Not only from oneself and the source but all other beings.  Walls built upon walls.  So afraid to open one's heart to let anyone else in.  You know not pain but most assuredly know no love no matter if you call it so.  You've already given up.  You tell yourself you are successful because you have a wife, family, job, and car - but are you really happy?  

Why did you come here?  You came here to know the light and the dark.  To climb the ladder and possibly soar like the eagle.  Maybe that is asking a little much, but now as you are, you're wings are clipped and you're left relegated to your cage.  A parrot who can talk for days and days about everything you know.  You have the world in your hand yet you know not yourself.  Your pride covers any weaknesses that might slip out.  Your pride is your prison.  Do you want to repeat this life over again?  Could you stand the monotony of it all again or would you even understand?

Amongst all the mediocrity beauty remains.  It's in struggle.  It's in the light just as its in the dark.  The dark pushing us forward into the light to create one.  To experience redemption you must first take the fall.  The cycle cannot be completed unless you experience both sides.  Love is the complete openess to experiencing all that this world has to offer.  Love is not just loving the good, but loving the good and the bad.  It is unbiased.

When you have seen all the darkness and light this world has to offer and perfected your soul then the Utopia will be what it is to the idealist.  Once you have obtained absoluteness as you have upon death to this world in heaven the Utopia or heaven on earth will suit your soul as you envision.  If you lack something in your self you will not resonate with the utopian society.  

My writing is pretty bad.  I'll try and stick to information and quoting people like James.  Just read him and you get a beautiful message about what life is. 

Beautiful Surrender

I surrender it allllllalllllll
And o I surrender it allllallll
Oh I surrender
Ohh Ohh I surrender
There is no better loss than to lose myself in You
There is no better loss than to lose myself in You
There is no better find than to find myself in You
There is no better find than to find myself in You
Such a beautiful surrender

Quotes from Jacob Boehme

"The regenerated, new-born soul in Christ has not only a new spirit, but is a new creation, with an everlasting (spiritual) body. . . . . He is not of this world; he is a stranger to this world, with no understanding of it. . . . He is in the paradise of God, and desires nothing else but that which Christ within his soul desires. . . . This soul must die to letters, reason, scholarship and knowledge, to enter into the only one true life — Jesus! . . . For hard thoughts, high fancies and conceits are not necessary, but the love and mercy of God — to be one with him. . . . This soul must keep plunged in the humility, love and patience of God; . . . go every hour out of death, and into life!

"He must learn how to go out of discussion and vanity; . . . break the power of the selfish will, which no man can do by his own human power. . . . He must give up his self-will as dead, that he may be submerged in the love of God. . . To every self-centered desire this soul must die; for all that doth vex and plague is the self-hood. . . . In all the world there is no such cruel beast as that which is in the heart of every man and woman, — self-love!

"What hinders men from seeing and hearing God, is their own hearing, seeing and willing; by their own wills they separate themselves from the will of God. They see and hear within their own desires, which obstructs them from seeing and hearing God. Terrestrial and material things overshadow them, and they cannot see beyond their own human nature. If they would be still, desist from thinking and feeling with their own self-hood, subdue the self-will, enter into a state of resignation, into a divine union with Christ, who sees God, and hears God, and speaks with him, who knows the word and will of God; then would the eternal hearing seeing and speaking become revealed to them.

"Self-will cannot comprehend anything of God. It is not in God, but external to him. If we live in Christ, the Spirit of Christ will see through us, and in us. We will see and know what Christ desires.

"Christ dwelling in the soul, causes his light to become a holy substance, a spiritual body, a true temple, in which the Holy Spirit dwells. . . . Self-hood hath not true substance, in which light can be steadfast. It desireth not God’s meekness.

"In meekness and lowliness consisteth the kingdom of heaven. . . God’s substance is humility. He who came to rescue us from the evil power, described himself as ‘meek and lowly’; and he could announce, when quit of coarse flesh and blood disguise, that to him was given ‘all power in heaven and in earth’. . . The mysteries of God are revealed to the meek. Let the soul lose no time in trying to clothe itself with humility. . . .Humility is the throne of love; unless this throne is firmly established, love is quickly deposed by every spasm of self-will. . . .It is more blessed to continue under the cross of Christ, in patience and meekness, than to bring down ‘fire from heaven’! . . . There is no contention in Christ, but love and humility.

"The flowers of the earth do not grudge at one another, though one be more beautiful and fuller of virtue than another, but they stand humbly, kindly, one by another, and enjoy one another’s virtue; so we all please God, if we give up ourselves into his will; if we all stand humbly in his field.

"Our trance of selfishness must end, for we are all being organized, by the one only life, in the one body. In the body of Christ, self-seeking is a monstrosity! . . . The whole body must be ‘fitly joined together and compacted by that which every joint (or joining) supplieth, . . . unto the edifying of itself in love.’ The second manifestation of Christ to his people will be in their bodies. . . . Our Lord hath need of each one in his great, mystical body; and they must all be one in him, the Anointed.

"There is a life, this world comprehendeth it not; . . . it hath no fire to consume, but a mighty fire in light and love and joy; a fire of brightness and majesty, no pain therein. . . . It hath a body without defect, want, misery, anger, death or devil. . . . The Holy Spirit is its air and spirit; it is filled with love and joy. . . . This life has been from eternity. . . uprising and blossoming! . . . . It is not of this earth, but substantial, — the eternal life! . . . and all who have received this life, at the end of the age, will be presented pure and without blemish, . . . one body in Christ!

"In the time of the end, the time of the Lily, these writings will be sought as serviceable . . . to all such who are shooting forth into the fair Lily in the kingdom of God, who are in the process of birth, are these lines written; that each one may be strengthened, and bud in the life of God, and grow, and bear fruit in the Tree of paradise; . . . that each branch and twig in this fair Tree may contribute, help and shelter all the other branches and twigs, that this Tree may become a great Tree! . . . Then shall we all rejoice, one with another, with ‘joy unspeakable and full of glory’!"

Sunday, January 3, 2010

Quote from Walter Russell - Atomic Suicide

"God's Mind centers all things, all minerals, all vegtables, all animals, and every cell which constitutes their bodies.  He gives life and purposefulness to all things.  Bodies acquire awareness of purpose only through electrical messages of command from Mind which centers them for no body could otherwise move, survive or fulfill its purpose without being centered and polarized by Mind"

So now I want to look at this from the standpoint of man.  Obviously man is not balanced.  He has free will to separate from God's will but he also has his source in God.  I look at it as though God sends his perfect message to us and we must send our's back to Him.  We inevitably send him an unbalanced, selfish picture which he in turn must work to balance again.  There is constant struggle within because one is going against the will of God.  If there was no centering from God we would instantly die.  The circle is whole and balanced.  The square is the crystalized cube.  It as if it has broken off from the whole.  When we are against God's will and fight against Him this is when we become crystallized or compartmentalized.  When some cells start working contrary to the ultimate purpose disease springs up.  Disease brings death if it is not re-balanced.  So crystalization is essentially moving away from God and the divine purpose.  The lack of fluidity or ability to move brings death, which is returning to the stillness of God.  The ideal goal is for this crystalization to happen at the end of a complete cycle.  If crystalization occurs early in life it is usually due to one becoming selfish and veering off away from God.  This is an unfinished cycle which logically means it must be repeated to see if one has learned from the mistakes made previously to move further along.

Moving from from animal to man is like a young boy taking off the training wheels on his bike.  He is getting to be free for the first time.  With this freedom comes risk and the posibility of pain.  The animal only feels physical pain.  Man feels physical pain along with the pain of consequence due to attaining self consciousness.  As he becomes more self conscious he begins to learn right from wrong.  The animal only relates to the body, man has his mind and can effect others with emotions as well.  The animal cannot transcend, he is what he is.  He cannot become genius.  Man has the ability to become as much as he desires to be.  This can only be done though by coming in line, in balance with his source, the still magnetic center where God resides.  In my mind I see it as God sending a straight line to man (from his centered domain) and man must transcend the poles finding the center sending back a straight line to God.  However, unbalanced man finding himself somewhere between the two poles but not in the center would send a beam of light that was off center (or 0).  God always sends out a balanced thought but man unless he finds the center is sending unbalanced thoughts to God.  He must find the objective center.

Another way of looking at it:  Man is separated from God as a circle and eventually becomes wholly separate with no connection becoming square, completely crystalized.  This is what you had in ancient times when man was a literal beast.  Today you will still see many a beastly man but you also see some geniuses who are shedding the crystalized body, the crystalized thinking that the body is man and he starts to revert back to the shape of a balanced perfect circle.  He understands that the electrical, material world of motion that he sees is but an illusion and that the true nature is one magnetic stillness, empty and full at the same time.

PD Ouspensky - The Psychology of Man's Possible Evolution

Below are some of my paraphrasing and quotes from the text:

'Man is a machine - this means that he has no independent movements, inside or outside of himself.  He is a machine brought into motion by external influences and external impacts.'

"We must understand that man can do nothing.  But he does not realize this and ascribes to himself the capacity to do so.  This is the first wrong that man ascribes to himself."

"Everything that man thinks he does, really happens.  It happens exactly as "it rains" or "it thaws"."

"But from the psychological side lying has a different meaning.  It means speaking about things one does not know, and even cannot know, as though one knows and can know."

"Imagination is almost as bad as lying, it is, in fact lying to oneself.  Man starts to imagine something to please himself, and very soon he begins to believe what he imagines, or at least some of it."

"If knowledge outgrows being or being outgrows knowledge, the result is always a one-sided development, and a one-sided development cannot go far.  It is bound to come to some inner contradiction of a serious nature and stop there.
Some time later we may speak about the different kinds and the different results of one-sided development, ordinarily, in life we meet with only one kind, that is, when knowledge has outgrown being.  The result takes the form of a dogmatization of certain ideas and the consequent impossibility of a further development of knowledge because of the loss of understanding."

The Heritage of Man is Man Himself

Quoted from the book, "The Wind of Spirit" by G. de Purucker

The heritage of man is man himself. Each man is the builder of himself, and the destroyer maybe. Each man is his own regenerator and savior, and each man undoes the work upon himself which mayhap for aeons in the past he had been building. This statement may sound recondite, difficult to understand, a dark saying; and yet I wonder that anyone could or might doubt so self-evident a truth. Is it not clear enough that what a man is, he is; and that what he is, is the result of his former lives, the resultant of his thoughts and his feelings, the resultant of his previous willings and thinking and feeling? We make ourselves, we fashion our own characters.

This is one of the commonplaces of human experience. But just think what it means to grasp it in fullness. We make our lives shapely from day to day and year to year and from life to life; or we make them very ugly; and no one is to blame on the one hand, and no one is to be praised on the other hand, except the man himself. Think how just this is. We have nobody, naught outside ourselves, to blame if we have made ourselves unshapely and ugly and full of sorrow and pain; and there is none to be praised when our lives become shapely and beautiful in symmetry through our own efforts, save we ourselves. A man by thinking may change his character, which means changing his soul, which means changing his destiny, which means changing everything that he is or becomes in the present and in the future. Why blame the blameless gods for our own faults, for molding us in the patterns that we ourselves have shaped? It is the old idea of passing the buck -- slang, but how expressive! -- throwing the blame on someone else. This is the surest way to go down instead of going up; for the recognition of truth and of justice and the cognizance of responsibility in a man, by a man of himself, are the first steps to climbing the path higher; and what hope there is in this. Think of the mistakes we have made in the past, the wrongs that we have wrought on others and on ourselves. Only half the story is told when we say that we have made ourselves and that we are responsible for ourselves. The other half of the story is what we have done upon others: how we have helped to shape their lives in beauty, or to misshape their lives in ugliness.

This recognition of man's responsibility not only to himself, but to others, is the lost keynote of modern civilization which seems to be infatuated with the idea that things will run themselves, and that all that men have to do is to get what they can from the surrounding atmosphere. I think that is a hellish doctrine, and can but produce its harvest of misery. Let a man realize that he is a man and that what he sows he shall reap, and that what he is reaping he himself has sown, and see how the face of the world will be changed. Each man will become enormously observant not only of his acts which are the proofs of his thoughts and his feelings, firstly upon himself, but perhaps more important, of the impact he makes upon others. I think it is the lack of this feeling of individual responsibility and also mass responsibility in the world today which is the cause of the many, many horrors which are growing worse instead of better. It fosters the belief that violence can right a wrong. It never can. Violence never has perished by adding violence unto it. No problem ever has been solved after that manner. It is against the laws of being, against the laws of things as they are.

What is a man's heritage? I say again, it is man himself. I am myself because I made me in other lives. And how ashamed I am of myself at times that I have not made me wiser and better and higher and nobler in every way; and how I bless the whispering intimations of divinity within my heart that I can say I am not worse than I am! You see, this is the first realization of my responsibility to all -- and the all includes me. And here is a wonder-thought: when a man does right, no matter at what cost to himself, he strengthens himself and he strengthens all others. It is a work of wonderful magic. And when a man does evil, is it not obvious that he weakens himself? First there is the weakening of his will, then the soiling of his thoughts, and then the lessening of the strength of his genuine inner feelings. The very contact with such a man, provided he follow the downward path long enough, causes the self to be soiled. Even as one rotten apple, they say, will ruin a whole barrelful of sound fruit, so will an evil character adversely and evilly affect not only himself, but all unfortunates who may be near him.

We can save ourselves from this very easily, because there are few things so revealing as evil. It has naught to stand upon except illusion. Leave it alone and it will vanish like a mist. Do not strengthen it by pouring more evil into the illusion from your own energy. If it has naught to stand upon, no source of vital activity within itself, it falls, it goes to pieces. How different is good, which is health-giving and strengthening and cleansing. Such simple truths, and so profound! I suppose the most simple things are the most beautiful and the most profound.

So this doctrine of the heritage of a man which is himself is simply the doctrine of another chance for the man whose life has been spoiled by himself. No other man can spoil you unless you yourself cooperate in the spoiling. None other can make you evil unless you conjoin in the suggestion or in the doing. Blame not the other for your fall. It is yourself who fall, and you will never fall, you would never have fallen, unless you had preferred that which brought about the fall. Such simple truths, and yet they comprise a code of divine conduct for us men on this earth. A child may understand these things because they are so clear, they are so obvious.

The doctrine of another chance! Think of the man -- any one of us -- who has made a mess of his life and wonders why ill fortune and misfortune and unhappiness and misery and other terrible things come upon him, until sometimes in the agony of self-reproach he cries, "Lord, deliver me from this hell." It is the old weak appeal to something where no help lies, for help is within. The divinity lies in your breast, the source of all strength and grandeur; and the more you appeal to it the more you exercise it, the more you strengthen your own self, advance in truth and wisdom, rise above all the planes of weakness and sorrow and pain brought about by evildoing.

So you have made yourself; and in your next life you will be just what you are now making yourself to be. You will be your own heritage. You are now writing, as it were, your last will and testament for yourself. When a man realizes this wonderful fact, he no longer blames others, no longer sits in judgment upon his brothers. He no longer says: I am holier than thou -- an attitude which is the sure mark of the weak and of the poor in spiritual life.

There is a wonderful French proverb which runs thus: Tout comprendre c'est tout pardonner: "To understand everything is to forgive all." To understand all the hid causes, the results, the past destiny, the present strength, the temptation, the virtue, whatever it may be -- to understand all this is to have divine knowledge, and it means to forgive. It is a wonderful proverb and must have been uttered first, I venture to say, by some human being who had a touch of illumination. I know myself by my own experience that when I have been hurt, or am hurt and think I am unjustly treated, I say to myself, even when it seems to me that the wrongdoing unto myself is obvious: If I could read the heart of my brother who has wronged me, read back into the distant past and see what mayhap I did to him to wrong him, perhaps I would realize that he now is as unconscious of the wrong he does me as I was then of the wrong I did to him. I shall not increase the treasury of virtue and happiness and peace in this world by taking up the gauge of battle and injecting more fury and hatred into a hatred-ridden world. But I can do my part in strengthening myself, do my part in getting some illumination from above-within, from the god within me, by doing what I myself have taught: practicing what I preach. Peace and happiness come from this, and the sense of increased self-respect and the growth of pity.

Do you know, I sometimes think that pity or compassion is one of the most celestial visitors to the temple of the human heart. The old sages used to say that none but the gods really pay men exact justice, or what they think is justice and flatter themselves that they are right. The gods hear all, see all, feel all, understand all, and are filled with pity. Think, if any one of us human beings were weighed in the strictest scales of karmic justice untempered by pity and wisdom, what chance do you think any one of us would have to escape condemnation? Does any one of you think that you are so spotless in virtue and holy strength that the scales would not fall against you? If so, you are very, very happy -- or very, very blind! I think that if such spotless purity of past karma were yours, you would not be here as a man on this earth working out your own heritage -- yourself.

True it is that in the future all the human race are going to be gods, and there is no reason on earth why we should not begin in the present instant of time to grow towards godhood. You win all, you gain all; you lose naught. From driven slave of past karma you become the orderer in time of your own destiny, for you are your own heritage. What a doctrine of comfort! What light it bestows!

Friday, January 1, 2010

Vernon Howard

The Snow Walker

Watch the movie first and then you can read my interpretation of the movie and what I took from it.  I will spoil the movie for you so stop reading now if you desire to see the movie without knowing how it unfolds.

This movie taps into the soul of the world.  It is what life is (or should be) all about.  It is the story of a fall from grace and the chance at redemption.  Charlie is a brash, cocky pilot in the Northwest Territories in Canada.  He is a good guy and he has lived a successful life.  But he is also quick to temper and quite prideful.  He is attached to material life.

He is goes on what is supposed to be short journey to do business with some Inuits, but in the course one of the tribe's girls is sick and he is bribed with ivory to take her to the hospital.  On the way back the plane fails and crashes.  They are stuck in the middle of nowhere with no radio and little supplies.  This is his fall from grace.

He decides to leave her behind and seek help promising to send back help.  On the way he finds thath it is tough going.  He loses parts to his gun leaving it unusable and his boots are wearing away.  He wakes up one day to a swarm of mosquitoes or some type of pest.  One could look at this as a sign of darkness relative to the locusts swarms in scripture.  I would call this his false journey, one that is full of pride which is deemed to fail because of his blindness to reality.  He is at the mercy of nature and must not fight it.  He looks as though he is soon to face death when the Inuit girl he left behind comes to save him. 

She growing up in a culture that uses the earth and all it provides to the fullest potential begins to heal him.  She is the spirit that will help him walk the path back to grace.  If he opens up to her and they work together she can bring him redemption.  When he sees all that she is capable of as in hunting, fishing, etc. he begins to respect her and they start to bond.

They end up getting to a point where they think no one will see them and decide to go back to the plane crash.  She is in her element but yet she is sick so they both must co-create.  They both take care of each other.  Even though she is sick she pushes herself to go the extra mile.  She labors for hours on end to make him boots and skins to protect him from the elements.  She is the epitome of selfless.

Towards the end she becomes too sick to walk and starts throwing up blood.  This is where he shows his new found spirituality and selflessly builds a sled to drag her behind him as they seek to find civilization.  She becomes resigned to the fact that she will die.  She is not scared as she knows this is simply part of the cycle of life.

At home Charlie is pronounced dead just around this same time when he is taking care of her.  His boss gives his eulogy with a poem by a fallen soldier (he was also a solider).  The symbolism here is that Charlie is indeed dying, he is dying to his old self.  His selflessness in trying to save this girl brings about a whole new person.  I also love the symbolism as she dies.  The moon where the God of Death reigns supreme is shown but subsequently the sun is shown as well.  This is symbolizing the darkness of death and re-birth of light that the sun brings.  He buries her in a tomb of rocks as they had previously done for a pilot they found crashed.  He leaves her tools with her body as she will need them in the afterlife just as she taught him to do for the fallen pilot.  He is showing his new found love and respect for life.

Being reborn he goes along on his own (you cannot reach heaven unless you leave mother and father).  The journey home must be one in solitude.  He reaches a Inuit settlement and the picture you get with him and his gear horizontally across his back is one of a cross.  As in the Christ is coming home.  When he approaches the tribe they embrace in a circle.  This is the atonment or becoming one with the Father.  He completes the journey from prideful, materialistic man, shedding this with the help of the spirit of mother nature (the teacher/mentor/guardian angel), and from his hard journey through the wilderness where he developed humility and selflessness becomes One with all that is.

In the beginning after his fall he had a false faith that was in himself.  Because his faith was errantly in himself he falls even farther to the brink of death.  With lost faith in himself he resigns himself to death.  If he cannot do it himself (selfishly) then there is no way in his mind.  The girl comes along and bestows a different type of faith on him.  The faith in the spirit.  You must not fight nature but work with it.  As in we cannot make the journey out of death (as in the material world detached from God) unless we have the spirit working with us.  Everything is a co-creative process.  If you work in self then you are already dead.  If you work with/in God you have eternal life.

There is a part in the movie where another pilot who is jealous of Charlie says as they are searching for him that Charlie is dead to his co-pilot, that anyone who crashes out there is as good as dead, end of story.  So you can look at the Inuit girl as God.  Without her he would have been dead and that is essentially a fact.  With God on your side you can never count anyone out.

She is the Christ.  She died so that he could have his salvation.  This is her selfless act to him.  The process started because he agreed to take her to get medical help.  It wasn't selfless as he did it for monetary gain, but he could have said no altogether leaving her to certain death.  In the process each of them needing each other become one.

To find salvation for himself he must take the cross upon himself and die to self as well.  Her dying is as if to say that because of his selfless act he is now worthy to bear the cross and carry the message on to the rest of the world.

It's just a really great movie that I didn't expect much out of.  I hope you can enjoy it as much as I did and look at it from the perspective of the journey of the hero, Christ's journey through matter back to heaven.